Hello! We have been on this journey together for a month, thank you for hanging in there with me. From what I have read most Blogs change and evolve as I am sure this one will but for now I am just glad that you are all still with me. Woo hoo!

Next, the Little One told me that I was not being true to myself or my readers with my all about me because I refer to Big E as my husband. Those who know me outside of this blog know that Big E was my husband, he is the father of my children but life took a HARD LEFT and we divorced. We are now back together in a committed relationship. No we haven’t remarried yet, I am sure I will write more about that later. However, I will continue to refer to him as my husband, he is the only one I have ever had and ever really expect to have. Marriage is HARD I don’t see myself doing it with anyone but that goofball. I did however, tell the Princess once, now that the laws have changed, I would marry her when we are really old if she needs insurance. Sorry Mom. LOL

That brings me to the code names; Little One wasn’t real sure about those either. I haven’t asked anybody’s permission to use their real names yet. I will later but for now it has been kind of fun. They know who they are. I haven’t gotten in trouble with anyone. Everyone has been real cool with the things I have shared so far and the names I’ve used. I do call Princess, Princess to her face sometimes, remeber I am the Bold one LOL. The Little One being my youngest will always be my Little One and Big E hasn’t read the blog yet so far so good.

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Last because I talk about boundaries on Monday I wanted to share some pictures of the beautiful Shelby. (and Mr. Jack upper left) Shelby was a Cockalier – half Cocker Spaniel – half King Charles Spaniel who brought 10 years and 9 months of joy to our family. Shelby actually belonged to my oldest daughter; Momma Bear and she fought for that dog’s health like nobody’s business. Shelby was on a medication routine that would make your head spin. She had so many things wrong with her. Until the last month of her life Shelby was happy. She had definitely slowed down, but happy. That last month though was totally up and down. Why boundaries? What to do became an issue, how much more to do, how much pain was she in, how much was anxiety, how much more to spend on medication that was only going to put off the inevitable. It was an awful conversation to have mostly because we knew it was coming and we knew what the kindest thing would be and no one wanted to say it. Then Shelby stopped eating. The dog we would call goat would not eat anything for anyone. Of course the vet had more test they could do and meds they could give but in the end Momma Bear did what a good Momma would do and helped Shelby not be in pain anymore. It was an awful no good horrible day for us, and Shelby’s first pain free day in a long time. Momma Bear drew the line and said enough is enough and made that boundary for her sweet Shelby. I am proud of her for being strong enough to do it. And on her drive to work the next day God sent Momma Bear a rainbow to let her know everything was going to be all right.

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